ANGST!

so today ive been feeling REALLY angsty. all during swim team i was like SCREW THIS. and in my head i started making a list of things in my head that were complete blasphemy (because its such a cool word) then i started making a list of things in my life that could be considered epic fails. It was a very long list. and i kind of just wanted to walk away from swim practice and never come back, because i hate swimming now because the stupid head coach is making our practices and i HATE his practices. BLECKBLECKBLECK!!!
AHHHHH! ANGST ANGST ANGST!!!

on a brighter note, i went to the mall yesterday with my 8th grade friends. and it was fun, but kinda annoying cuz one of them would be like "I KNOW WHAT YOUR THINKING ABOUT" whenever i zoned out. grr. and we went and laughed at all the people in line for twilight. i still dont see whats so bad about waiting a few weaks and seeing it when its less crowded.

bye

Music thingy because i LOVE these things!

yeah, i love music quizzes. actually, i ask my ipod questions all the time, which is really stupid cuz it never gets them right.

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'IS THIS OKAY' YOU SAY? The Last Song Ever (whaaaa?)
HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? Teardrops on my guitar (yeah im a liquid!)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? Love Like This (ahhhh annoying song)
WHAT DO YOU FEEL LIKE TODAY? Call To Arms (um...no)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? Photograph (well, that stinks.)
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? S.E.X. (dont ask why this is on my ipod. it was on a CD. and wow, people. wow.)
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? Thunder (BOOM)
WHAT DO YOU OFTEN THINK ABOUT? Push (no)
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? She Is (NO!)
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Papercut (well, I do get a lot of paper cuts. but this song is about hearing voices in your head.)
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Here (In Your Arms) (well. weird.)
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Up Against The Wall (HAHA)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? Soap Disco (um. no. but this is by Kara's Flowers which was what maroon 5 was a loooong time ago, just so u people know.)
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Dance,Dance (um. people's brains work weird)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? Fergalicious (IM AFRAID OF FERGIE! HAHAHA)
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET? Holiday (no)
WHAT DESCRIBES YOUR LAST KISS? Potential Breakup Song (no)
WHAT DESCRIBES YOUR FEELINGS FOR THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Better That We Break (hmmm...parts of it, maybe.)
WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND LIKE? If We Were a movie (NO! EW HANNAH MONTANA)
WHAT DESCRIBES YOUR OVERALL PERSONALITY? Not Falling Apart (so...i have a durable personality?...haha when i first typed that it said "durkable")
HOW DO YOU TAKE REJECTION? Boulevard of Broken Dreams (i guess i dont take it well?)
HOW DO YOU REACT TO SOMEONE INSULTING YOU? Don't Trust Me (that makes no sense)
WHEN WILL YOU GET IN YOUR NEXT RELATIONSHIP? Intermission to the moon (way to not answer the question! I think it would have been funny if it had said "never again" haha.)
WHO DO YOU LIKE? Love Me Dead (...)

ANOTHER ONE!

OPENING CREDITS
Home (um...)

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL
Time Machine (so...it will feel like im going back in time?)

FALLING IN LOVE
The Reason (i dont get it)

FIGHT SONG
Can't Stop (good fight song actually. excepy its weird when it goes "i just wrestle with you in my dreams and wake up makeing love to a pillow" ... yeah)

BREAKING UP
Over My Head (hmmm...it could work, i guess)

PROM
the ghost of you (well, that doesnt sound good)

LIFE
We Takin' Over (so...im gunna rule the world?)

MENTAL BREAKDOWN
Fall For You (at first i thought that made no sense. but it could make sense if you twist it and think about it upside-downly.)

DRIVING
All At Once (huh?)

FLASHBACK
I Love Your Existence (ok then)

GETTING BACK TOGETHER
The Sharpest Lives (um. no.)

WEDDING
The Sweet Escap (so...i guess it will be good?)

BIRTH OF CHILD
Love Today (HAHAHAHHAHAHA)

FINAL BATTLE
Ring Ring (ummm...)

DEATH SCENE
Through With You (so...i guess i'll be through with life by then? thats good...i guess.)

FUNERAL SONG
Your Wildest Dreams (creeeeepy)

twas fun.

yes, i AM posting on this blog again!

today was....veryveryvery annoying. so, during english this stupid kid stole my pencil, and i spent like 10 minutes trying to get it back from him cuz it was my only pencil, and he stuck it in his pants...ick. but he said he stuck it between his pants and boxers, so i hope that was right.

OH ITS A MIRACLE! I got back a quiz in math...and i got a 15/15!!! no one EVER gets perfect on quizzes...we usually all get B's. So im happy.

So my gym friends think i listen to really sad music, which is totally not completely true. I have lots of happy song! or sogs with sad lyrics but actually sound like they're happy. =P

And so after school i was listening to my ipod with someone while waiting for the swimming bus, and i was like "yeah i like to listen to songs i can relate to" and then the next song came on and the lyrics go "I know the bruises aint from falling down, they seem to show when your drunk dads around" and i got freaked out and was liek "NO wait NO! i cant relate to this song!"

yeah i know my life isnt interesting.

ooh but check out my horoscope for today: Cold logic has no place in the heart. That's brain territory! When you're in love, rationality rarely comes into play. The best bet is to follow the passion of your heart and the common sense that only a sensible brain can dole out.
a.k.a. i have to STOP OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING! which is pretty much my problem, and i know it is, and i just thought it was cool that my horoscope thought so, too. cuz i havent checked my horoscope in forever. heehee so i should be more Daoist (yay history references!). Yeah Daoism is my favorite history thing after BUDDHISM!!! Yeah me and my friend always talk about how we're gunna reach Nervana any day now if we keepy meditating under a tree and practicing by thinking about rocks. And our teacher told us that Winnie the Pooh was Daoist and we read a whole book on it!!! heehee =)

"Come to the dork side. we have pi"

kbye